tangled up.
1. Sometimes you’ll be like, “HEY EVERYONE LET’S DO SUSHI AND DRINKS AND FUN STUFF TOMORROW NIGHT!” but then tomorrow night comes and you regret everything as you try to weasel your way out of plans that you created. You resent 24-Hours-Ago-You for being so enthusiastic.


Joey Bats’ beautiful swing.






An Octopus unscrewing a lid from the inside.

Octopuses are going to kill us all someday

I had a biology teacher that told us this story about an octopus at an aquarium in Australia. The staff were concerned because their population of crustaceans kept disappearing. No bodies or anything. So they checked the video feed to find out what’s up.

Across from the the crustacean tank was a small octopus tank. This little fucker squeezed out of a tiny hole at the top of his tank, walk across the hall, and get into the crustacean tank. He would then hunt and eat. After he was done, he crawled back out and get back in his tank

Here’s the kicker: security guards patrolled the area. The staff realized that the octopus had memorized the security’s routine. It would escape and be back between the guards’ round.

An octopus in Germany was annoyed by a bright light shining into his tank, so he climbed up over the rim and squirted water at it to short it

Fuckin’ octopuses, man. 




let’s talk about what a fab human dan radcliffe is…



Here’s a list of the 149 for-profit companies whose cases are already pending, including several that object to all forms of contraception. Now that the Supreme Court has sanctioned their standing to make those claims and classified the coverage requirement as a substantial burden, they only have to show the sincerity of their beliefs to win.

Anyone who says this is not about disempowering women is lying to themselves and the rest of us.


dont tell me you didnt see this coming


All prepared to meet Herself next week. Can&#8217;t start reading it because I&#8217;m still a couple of books behind. #MOBY

All prepared to meet Herself next week. Can’t start reading it because I’m still a couple of books behind. #MOBY

All done. #onelxn

All done. #onelxn

It can be so hard to leave this face in the mornings. #oneeyedkitty

It can be so hard to leave this face in the mornings. #oneeyedkitty


This is not a post looking for advice, so if you feel you have something to contribute, I appreciate it, but please keep it to yourself. I already think I’m living my life “wrong”, and chances are, the advice you think you should share will just make me feel worse. :)
This is also not a post looking for pity, or sympathy - though perhaps it’s looking for a bit of empathy - but it IS a post just looking to explain where my head has been for the last few weeks. It’s not that I think anyone cares, because I totally understand that people don’t. But it’s something I feel I should share, and deep down I hope that getting it out there will somehow make me feel better.
I am also not looking for compliments. I find they don’t really help in this kind of situation, and like advice, tend to make me feel worse - either because I feel I’ve made someone feel guilty, or because I don’t believe them.

To sum up, I’ve been feeling pretty repulsive for the last few weeks. It happens once in a while - sometimes triggered by a personal event, sometimes triggered by events in the media, sometimes triggered by nothing at all - and it will go away, but that’s where I’m finding myself right now.

When I start to feel this way, it leads to me trying to spend as little time as possible out in public - I don’t want people to see me when my brain is telling me that I’m disgusting. So, this puts me into a bit of a shell. I don’t stay in touch with people, any solicitations for some time out are either avoided or declined, and I sit in my apartment - and that’s about it. Going to work isn’t so bad, for some reason, but I think that’s because I can spend most of my time in my cubicle, and I welcome the distraction of being so busy that I don’t have time to let what’s going on inside of my brain take over. Going to movies is great, because while it forces me out of the apartment and puts me out in public, I get to spend a few hours sitting in the dark (so nobody can see me) - and I get to enjoy something. (Though, to be honest, I fully enjoy evenings spent on the couch watching TV/sports/movies with my cat, regardless of how I feel about going outside - and regardless of whether or not anyone else thinks that’s something I should enjoy.)

This whole not-wanting-to-be-seen-by-people thing (in addition to many other faults) results in me not being a very good friend, and losing friends because of this is something I’m used to - I’ve been in this situation a few times before, and will likely be in this situation again. I do apologize to anyone who may have been feeling slighted lately because of how I’ve been behaving. It’s truly nothing personal, and it’s shitty, but I can’t really help it. I have enough trouble being social when I’m feeling good about myself, but when I’m like this, it’s incredibly hard.

If you can understand this, I’m incredibly grateful for your patience. I’m not sure if I deserve it, but I will always appreciate it.
If you can’t understand this, I get it. Most people can’t. Being like this makes me feel incredibly selfish. I’m sorry.

I do not feel sorry for myself, which is why I don’t look for that from anyone else. I am who I am, and this is part of who I am once in a while - and if you don’t like it, well… I’m sorry. I don’t know what else to say.

Things are already starting to look up, and I know it’s just a matter of time before everything clears up and I’m back to being able to spend time out there again.

Thanks for reading. I feel a bit better already. And I think I’m going to go to the movies. :)

Under the couch, a pause before the ambush. #oneeyedkitty

Under the couch, a pause before the ambush. #oneeyedkitty

Someone is ready to play. #oneeyedkitty

Someone is ready to play. #oneeyedkitty


Toasted Marshmallow Chocolate Mousse

This looks yummy, but it also kinda reminds me of the Stay Puft marshmallow man after he gets nuked.  :(


Toasted Marshmallow Chocolate Mousse

This looks yummy, but it also kinda reminds me of the Stay Puft marshmallow man after he gets nuked. :(